We know that some teenagers believes that a broken heart can never be mend, life won’t go on, can’t eat, can’t sleep etc. It becomes the end of the world and never will it be the same when their forever fantasy ends. I am 18 years of age and seemed to have gotten tired of seeing these younger teens write blogs and bulletins on their myspace about not being able to think straight about this and that, here and there. What parents don’t know about their children? Some are secretly suicidal to cope some hard times and others do it out in the open for attention.

Lets break down the facts about young crushes and loves if you may call it. Starting at a young age, you don’t even have to be mature to actually know that you have feelings for someone. When we get mixed signals from the opposite sex or from someone, we like to keep ourselves in a happy state of mind and try to IMAGINE what would be if you were together and more. We don’t even have to consult the other person to see how they really feel about you. When you become disappointed that it was nothing more than just a friendship that was really jolly and nothing more was to come out of it. That really freaks a person to find out someone they adored from a distance wasn’t into it as much as they were. They feel ashamed that they smiled like a fool when in the end, they didn’t get the prince charming. She feels so down that she thinks to herself she will never do the same ever again when she knows that in the near future or even the next day that she will just find someone new to fantasize over and the same thing could happen. When it does happen and again and a little more, she will begin to make herself believe that she is nothing more than a friend to a guy. She makes herself worry with fear that she will not find someone to look at her worthy enough to take seriously. She will turn to anything in the end to keep her mind off the “game” and will eventually hit a lonely depress mode. Some depress mode can last a day or two because that’s what us teens do, we mope around for a period of times. ha-ha. But others can take it really deep as well, they will come across any forms of death. Some can be influenced with movies dealing with drugs, reality, suicide, rape, love etc. Others can also be an influence to what she will do. Beware leaving sharp objects around your home, not only for safety but just to be safe that no one in your home stumble upon them for any reasons. Not doing so, teens have the urgency to try many things in their life and most I know including myself have fallen into this same hole.

Not all do any acts of “pre-suiside” in PRIVATE but some actually do it to tell the world a “fascinating” story about themselves. They actually want to be talked about and questioned about the whys, how, and to hear pity statements. They may have some issues but nothing that they do not share with someone else, they will make markings on themselves if they are a cutter*, and to know if they use your over the counter pills, check the count of it and if you are short on some. These people who tries to let everyone knows don’t really care for whatever issues they have, they only want people to look at them and talk about them, even if they are making some bad reputation. This is the easiest person to detect and to stop.

But someone who is in deep with their problems and turning to torturing themselves, they could be very dangerous to talk to; just being honest. Parents will fear for their children but don’t go off on them, you will only make it worse. I’ve learned my lesson, about 2 years ago. I will admit just to show that I know how it is. I was a cutter for 3 years and I have just about enough scars to prove them to you. It all began with doubts whether to start cutting my flesh or not to, once the first try, you will feel the adreneline rushing through you and once your issues gets deeper, the more urge you will have towards cutting yourself. Problems do not fade away in less than a week and to be addicted to something does not take any more than 4 days. What I am trying to say is that once your conflict is over, there will be a great chance that even if you do not need to cut yourself, you do it anyway because it seems to have become a routine. I knew I was a cutter and I admitted it to mysellf once I realized that I was constantly cutting myself in the morning, nights, early mornings and even between class periods when I was stressed out. I slash out to keep myself in check, to see if I was still human and seeing me bleed was enough proof for me. I wanted to cry about anything I wanted to scream at; I yearned for that pain, the pain that helps me blur the real pain I was facing and helped me focus everything to the stinging pain on my vulnerable skin.

I was very much out there and doing anything I could to hide the scars, hide the pains, all the stains, and how many lines have I created. I was so hooked on it that I felt as if I was drenched in blood and suddenly began to sink. From my experience, I can tell you just this much about the signs of a suicidal person who is in a dark part of their life. Some people like to write things as doodles, notes, or a letter about how they are feeling towards the world and what they have done today, yesterday etc. They don’t always shut people out of their way and don’t always mope around. But they do look distance sometimes and wishes to keep their doors and windows shut most of the time. Their attires can change and form of language can change as well such as speaking so knowledgable and showing interest to death. Some kids like myself was will also show interest in other types of suicide such as popping kills, writing good-bye letters just in case successful in the attempt, and even owning a a piece of rope in a closet. These are just the many signs I attained myself which my shrink and high school counselor noticed.

In conclusion, adreneline, attentions, and issues not known to “parents” can be the source of a suicidal teenager. Parents should keep themselves updated with their teens whether how their day was or what projects are they working on in school this week. Every little conversation can make the difference because trust me, I know. Never judge your child if ever you stumble upon this scenerio, stay calm and talk to them. Yelling and telling them that they are being stupid and calling a shrink on them right away will only aggrevate the person which adds fuel to the flame. In doing so, it will blow right to your face and making it harder for you as a parent to put it out and a greater chance of keeping your child in that scary dark corner they have built themselves in.